That was me
I had my crystal ball and I could predict, no better than predict, I could see the future. I could see someone and instantly take a dislike to them. I would judge a person by simply looking at them. I could foresee an event and see how it would pan out, how awful it would be. I could see myself in any situation and just know how I would feel, how people would react to me, how they would dislike me. I was in a dark lonely place, only ever seeing bad.
So, what happened?
Well, I decided I didn’t want to be a clairvoyant anymore, I decided enough was enough, I decided to change. The problem wasn’t with other people or situations, it was my own insecurities, my own self doubt. I never felt like I was good enough. I had very low self esteem and even lower self confidence. All the things I disliked in others were in fact things I disliked in myself.
It was through hypnotherapy that I learned to change my perspective, I learned I am enough, I became proud to be me. The rapid transformational therapy sessions I had took me back to my childhood to where the problems began. It was during the sessions that I saw myself as a child, a child scared of being alone, of not being loved, not being enough. I went back while hypnotised and spoke to myself as a child, I spoke to my ever present inner child. I reassured myself that I really am enough.
Well, like everything, to make change last you have to constantly work at it. I’ve changed my inner dialogue. I remind myself daily that I am enough, I am loved, I am. I realise that I like myself a whole lot more, I actually love myself. 99% of the time I am in a good headspace l, and if I’m not, I know what I have to do to get myself there.
It was during a video call with my extended family earlier today that I was reminded how far I have come in the last year. Just a year ago, I didn’t want to be alive, I was at rock bottom and could see no way up. I’ve turned my life around, completely. I’m in a happy place mentally, I feel free of the junk in my head that was holding me back. I’m alive right now, and I feel good!!