Innocence is wasted on the young


What did you worry about as a child? Most of us had everything that we needed, even everything we wanted. So what did we have to worry about? Food? Housing? Money? Work? Love? I’m guessing not. My worries as a child were being alone, not having any friends. I’ve taken this  worry with me into adulthood, only now I’ve added all of the above.


Was a mixed bag for me. I’ve felt very anxious for most of it. Work isn’t a happy place for me right now, I don’t feel I belong there anymore. I don’t really feel I belong anywhere. I’m in a state of limbo.

New beginnings

With the introduction of Mrs catmann to my life, I’m looking at relocating to a new area, to start a new life together. It’s relatively early days for us as a couple, but I know how I feel, I know what I want, however change is sometimes overwhelming for me, however change is necessary to move forward, to grow.


Mrs catmann took me for a drive this afternoon. It was while we were out I saw the inspiration for this blog. The inspiration came in the form of a small child. He was sitting on the pavement playing with a toy car. His only only care was the small plastic car. For him, covid did not exsist, brexit didn’t exist, no masks existed. There was no anxiety, no depression, just a toy car, just freedom It was just his toy car . How amazing would it be to have that innocence again, to be that free?

The world

Is crazy at the moment, no in fact, it’s insane. Not only are we prisoners to covid, we are also prisoners locked inside our minds. Let’s all try to be like the little boy on the pavement. Let’s all try to enjoy the real things in life. Let’s all try to keep it real. Let’s all try to remain sane.


Is wasted on the young to a degree. How happy would we all be as the young lad playing with his toy car on the pavement ?

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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