I have found my nirvana


I finally found a gym in my hometown that I actually like. I felt comfortable in there. At home. In the 21 months I have lived in Stowmarket I have tried a few different gyms, but I didn’t like any of them. Some were unwelcoming, some full of kids and one I thought was unsafe.

So close

My favourite gym was in Ipswich (better gym). Unfortunately that closed at the start of the year. Although I have been making a half arsed effort to train at home, it’s just not the same. No motivation. Yesterday I joined bodywize. It is the closest gym to my flat. I had been put off in the past by what people said. Lesson learned, find out for yourself (myself).


I had the same feeling walking into bodywise yesterday that I did years ago when I walked into better gym. I felt relaxed, I felt I belong, I felt home. The lady working on reception was lovely. Very friendly and explained how it all worked during covid.


I warmed up with a 5km run on the treadmill and then I found my nirvana. For the first time in months, I lifted a weight. Man, that felt so good. I got an instant buzz. A buzz that I only get when pushing my body. A buzz I have missed so badly.

Mind, body and soul

Training or exercise of any sort really does help with the mind, body and soul. When I’m trying, I am focused, I am living in the moment, I am present. I’m at an amazing point mentally right now. I have put the demons in my head to bed, hopefully forever. Now I have found a gym I like hopefully I can get my body back into shape.


I woke up today with a feeling that I have missed doms (delayed onset muscle soreness), or heaven as I call it. Its caused by tiny, microscopic tears in your muscle fibers when training at high intensity. Your body responds to this damage by increasing inflammation, which may lead to a delayed onset of soreness in the muscles.


About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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