Mind, body and soul


My mind is probably in the best shape it has been in for all of my adult life. I still have constant manic and depressive swings and bouts of anxiety, but the way in which I deal with it has made it so much easier to live with. I know most of my triggers, how to avoid or deal with them. I am in a really good place. For the first time in my life I am truly happy just being me. With that said I have the best family and friends around me for support if I need them. I’m thinking with clarity, my memory has improved and I can concentrate without distraction.

Needham Lake while out on my bike


My body has been neglected recently. I have had far to much vino and eaten to many refined carbs and to much junk food. I’m carrying to much Visceral fat and overall my body fat is 10% to high. That’s not good, I’ve really let my body go. I feel sluggish and lethargic. My fitness had gone out of the window. Until today that is. I went out on my bike for 20km (not great, but a start).

When I got home I felt so much better, energised, ready for the day. Shame I didn’t go until lunchtime. I need to go shopping for fresh fruit and vegetables. I did have a can of bcaa and caffeine energy drink to help fuel my earlier ride, not the best but needed.

I’m not one that believes in fad diets that restrict what you can eat, just burn more calories than you consume, build lean muscle, stay hydrated. Your body will be just fine.


The very being of me, who I am. I now know who I am, what I want and what makes me happy. Last night is a good example for me. I went out for a ride on my motorbike with some friends. I didn’t know any of the people I rode with this time last year. A year ago it would have freaked me out, I would have been far out of my comfort zone. Last night however was a really good night for me. I met up with Neil, Steven, Matt and Nick. We rode to stonham barns for their weekly bike night. The ride there was a a completely different pace to what I am used to, I loved it. I met up and had a chat with a good friend Ivan who I went to college with. On the way home I rode faster that I ever have before. It was 69.9mph officer.

My baby

After a slight near miss with the back end of a lorry, I can now confirm that my brakes work very well.


I just wanted to say a massive thank you to the 816 people that have subscribed to my blog so far. 11,200 views in just over four months is amazing, thank you. I’ve had hundreds of messages of support and feedback to say I am helping others. Thank you all so much.

Stay strong and live you life your way.


About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
%d bloggers like this: