First bad day in ages


I went to work for training this morning. The session was very good and I enjoyed it. While I was at work, I felt fine, actually I felt pretty good. It was on my way home that things started to change.


While I was driving I noticed that my shoulders were tense, very tense. I was listening to music but, not listening at all. I felt shattered, all I wanted to do was to sleep.


I had to take diazepam, something that I haven’t done for a long time. I was riddled with overwhelming anxiety and needed to calm myself down, I needed to sleep.

Not worried

Because I have been doing so well, I am not overly worried, I will not beat myself up. I slept for quite a while and woke up with the anxiety still present.


I’ve hardly eaten today and I don’t have an appetite right now. I am going to get changed and go for a ride on my motorbike, that usually helps. Tomorrow is another day.


About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.


  1. Hey, I hope you are okay 🙂

    1. Just a bad day. I hope x

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