I went to work for training this morning. The session was very good and I enjoyed it. While I was at work, I felt fine, actually I felt pretty good. It was on my way home that things started to change.
While I was driving I noticed that my shoulders were tense, very tense. I was listening to music but, not listening at all. I felt shattered, all I wanted to do was to sleep.
I had to take diazepam, something that I haven’t done for a long time. I was riddled with overwhelming anxiety and needed to calm myself down, I needed to sleep.
Because I have been doing so well, I am not overly worried, I will not beat myself up. I slept for quite a while and woke up with the anxiety still present.
I’ve hardly eaten today and I don’t have an appetite right now. I am going to get changed and go for a ride on my motorbike, that usually helps. Tomorrow is another day.