I bet its cold six feet down


That was the thought that occurred to me as I felt the warmth of the sun on my face. I could have been in a much darker colder place, never to feel the sun again. Of course that will be the case one day, but hopefully I have years left.


I’m actually starting to make plans, something I have never done before. At this moment in time most of the plans are health related. Today I am having a rest from my exercise and making the most of the last day of the nice weather.


As I have said before, I want to be bulletproof. It’s taking me alot longer to get there than I expected, but I am making marked progress now. Mentally and physically. I am enjoying the small things in life, I am finding myself. I think I finally know who I am, or at least who I want to be.


It’s such a beautiful day today I am so lucky to see it and feel it. I’m sat in the park writing this,  In the year and a half that I have lived here I have never been before. It feels kinda weird sitting here all on my own. It’s peaceful and nearly empty.


Of the people that are here, I wonder what is going on in their heads. They all look happy, but as I know only to well that means nothing. You really never can judge a book by its cover.

Final thoughts

I am grateful for my life my friends and my family. I am thankful for everything thing that I have and everything I am. I am blessed. Don’t live your life with regrets. If you want someone let them know. If you want something, go out and get it. Today is a gift Tomorrow isn’t promised.

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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