It’s been a typical day for me so far today. I’m still on the roller coaster of emotions, and see no sign of getting off just yet. I woke riddled with anxiety and fear. My adopted sister video called me and my mind calmed for a while.
I need a routine back, I need to get back to work. My appointment with occupational health is at the end of next week. No matter how I feel, I hope they say I am fit for work. I have been off for far to long. This morning I walked into town to post my sick certificates and then drove to https://www.mototechniks.com just so I could speak to another human in person.
I have to much time on my hands, I’m sure that is half of my problem. Since getting back home all I have done is laid on my bed with waves of anxiety washing over me, constantly overthinking. It’s horrible. I did use one of my self hypnosis audios which helped for a short time.
I’m meeting up with my adopted sister and going to her mum and dad’s for dinner. It will be good to get out of my flat for a while. I hope I sleep tonight.
I’m not living at the minute, purely existing 😔.