I have everything I need just not the one thing I want


I have a roof over my head, a car, a motorcycle, food and water. I am safe and secure. My family and friends are the best in the world. What more could I ask for? Truly blessed.

man tattooed praying

The coast

I rode my motorcycle to the beach today. The past three days have been riddled with anxiety and fear. Not being able to concentrate or settle at all. The weather was beautiful. What more could I ask for?

Fresh air clean mind

The combination of the ride out, the sunshine and the beach had the desired effect. I found a nearly empty section of beach, stripped off (I had shorts on), and laid out my towel. Heaven.

Able to read

I took my leant Ruby Wax book and I was actually able to concentrate enough to read for quite a while and take the words in. Already I can tell the book will be very helpful to me. It is written in a funny way without using to much psychological jargon. Easy to understand and relate to.

Clear mind

When I put the book down, and closed my eyes and I could focus on just being, I was grounded, it was perfect ….for a while. It was in that moment that I realised what I would give anything for, just one day free of anxiety, one day of no overthinking, one day of being me.

man s face


Once home I slept for three hours soild.

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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