I have a roof over my head, a car, a motorcycle, food and water. I am safe and secure. My family and friends are the best in the world. What more could I ask for? Truly blessed.
I rode my motorcycle to the beach today. The past three days have been riddled with anxiety and fear. Not being able to concentrate or settle at all. The weather was beautiful. What more could I ask for?
Fresh air clean mind
The combination of the ride out, the sunshine and the beach had the desired effect. I found a nearly empty section of beach, stripped off (I had shorts on), and laid out my towel. Heaven.
Able to read
I took my leant Ruby Wax book and I was actually able to concentrate enough to read for quite a while and take the words in. Already I can tell the book will be very helpful to me. It is written in a funny way without using to much psychological jargon. Easy to understand and relate to.
When I put the book down, and closed my eyes and I could focus on just being, I was grounded, it was perfect ….for a while. It was in that moment that I realised what I would give anything for, just one day free of anxiety, one day of no overthinking, one day of being me.
Once home I slept for three hours soild.