Cloudy mind on a clear day

Bad days

I’m on my third bad day in a row. Why is that? Nothing has changed. I stayed in most of yesterday, just went out to get some shopping.


My concentration has gone again. I’ve been given three books to read by a friend of mine. I have read the first page of one of them over and over without taking anything in.

Ruby Wax

The first book is “Sane new world” by Ruby Wax.

Ruby Wax – comedian, writer and mental health campaigner – shows us how our minds can jeopardize our sanity.
With her own periods of depression and now a Masters from Oxford in Mindfulness-based Cognitive Therapy to draw from, she explains how our busy, chattering, self-critical thoughts drive us to anxiety and stress.
If we are to break the cycle, we need to understand how our brains work, rewire our thinking and find calm in a frenetic world.
Helping you become the master, not the slave, of your mind, here is the manual to saner living.


So, after spending much of yesterday in bed, I pushed myself to go out today. I visited my friend, my youngest daughter and my auntie. I was out on my motorbike which cleared my head for a while.


I am now back in my flat, overwhelmed with anxiety and overthinking. I’m trying to work out why. I know reading will help, I will try again when I go to bed.


I have almost got my diet back on track and I am drinking plenty of water. Both of which should have a positive impact on my mood. Maybe tomorrow….

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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