man wearing backpack standing on field

The fog has decended once again

Time away

My night stay with my son and his mum turned into two. On waking the second morning a cloud of anxiety has filled my mind.


Over the last two days I have laughed until I cried. I’ve had the best time. I didn’t have time to think, I was in a really good headspace.

And now

On waking this morning I feel horrible again, riddled with anxiety. What is it? Maybe the thought that later on I will have to leave and be on my own again?


One positive is that I am aware of how much I am questioning myself, looking for my own answers. This is something I’ve not done before.

Ride home

Hopefully the ride home later on will clear my head.

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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