Well hopefully not for much longer. Today is the first day of my talking therapy with the wellbeing team. I have six half hour weekly sessions booked to start with. To me this doesn’t sound like long enough, but hopefully this will just be the first of many things offered to me. I’m both nervous and excited. I don’t want to drag the past up and go through all of those painful memories, but I know it is the only way to insure that my future is happier. I need to understand from a professional point of view how I tick. I never want to make the same mistakes that I have in my past.
I’m already feeling much better overall. The good days are slowly outweighing the bad. I think I am finally on the correct medication and at the right dose. I still have days when my motivation is absolute zero, but I try not to dwell on this. Changing my diet has helped to lift my mood and raise my energy levels. I’m cutting back on carbs and upping my protein. I’m trying to eat as clean as I can on a budget. I’ve started body weight and resistance band training at home. Like i said recently, I will use my hybrid bike for cardio.
Inspite of all I have just said, it is raining, I’m still in bed and my curtains are still drawn. I’m now going to push myself to actually get up and move my body and do some fasted exercises. I’ll need to shower and get dressed so I look my best on the phone for my therapist…….