Day in bed

Not intentionally, but I have stayed in bed all day today. It’s now 7pm and there seems like little point in getting up now really. Although, I guess I could grace the sofa with my presence, I don’t want it to feel left out.

I had no plans for today and I live alone, so I don’t feel bad for not getting up. I do however feel bad for wasting a day of my life. Then again have I wasted it, I mean I must have needed the sleep. The only question is, will I be able to sleep tonight?………probably not.

The strange thing is, I still feel anxious and I’m over thinking like crazy? Until recently, I haven’t suffered from anxiety for years (unless at a new place or big event). These are the parts of me that I really need to work on the most. I want to actually be the person that other people see.

In the time it has taken me to write this I have made a massive life changing decision…..I’m going to get up. Im going to have a shower and actually eat something. I may even go for a run (where the hell did that idea come from)?

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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