I wasn’t going to blog today because I don’t really feel like it. But that is the whole point of my page, to help people, so I need to push myself when I don’t feel like it, and talk about my bad days.

I had a phone call from the amazing nurse at my surgery and we have agreed to up the dosage of my escitalopram to 10mg. This is the dose I was on last year. I will start tomorrow.

I have seen two very good friends today and had a long phone call and a video call with two others. For recent times, that is a busy day for me. While I was out I enjoyed myself (although felt very guilty). It was so good to catch up and talk about things face to face. The phone and video calls helped me emmensly too. It was when I was home alone that the clouds came down again.

I went to bed and slept for two hours (induced by diazepam). When I woke up I felt terrible and I still do. Riddled with anxiety and fear. I’ve gone back to bed. I haven’t eaten today, just not been hungry.

Sorry it’s a bit of a nothing blog. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is a day closer to my therapy. Tomorrow is a day closer to my recovery.