Hit me hard

I’ve finally worked out where I went wrong and what started the chain of events that has led me to where I am right now. It was a change in medication towards the end of last year.

I had completely turned my life around. The stars had aligned for me and my life was going well. Most of the work I had put in is still with me. I switched medication from escitalopram (which I am now back on) to mitazipine. It was a few weeks later that I noticed the overthinking, anxiety and not being in full control slowly crept back in. I should have stayed on what was working perfectly well for me. Lesson learned the hard way (as usual for me). There were a whole other chain of events that contributed to my temporary downfall.

I had been looking for one single event that had hit me hard to cause this, the simple truth is it was a combination. The medication change was definitely the start of it. I noticed my sleep first was deteriorating and then my mood. I know I will probably be on medication for the rest of my life, but its therapy that is going to get the old me back (slightly more improved I hope).

My hypnotherapy has made a massive improvement, but I still feel the underlying cause has not been fully dealt with. After spending nearly £800 on therapy so far, I cannot afford to spend anymore. I am currently waiting for my free talking therapy with the wellbeing team to start.

The last few days have been very tough for me, but I have got through them. This blog is helping me to feel better by speaking freely about how I am feeling. Thank you to everyone that is reading, following and subscribing. It means alot.

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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