I’ve finally worked out where I went wrong and what started the chain of events that has led me to where I am right now. It was a change in medication towards the end of last year.
I had completely turned my life around. The stars had aligned for me and my life was going well. Most of the work I had put in is still with me. I switched medication from escitalopram (which I am now back on) to mitazipine. It was a few weeks later that I noticed the overthinking, anxiety and not being in full control slowly crept back in. I should have stayed on what was working perfectly well for me. Lesson learned the hard way (as usual for me). There were a whole other chain of events that contributed to my temporary downfall.
I had been looking for one single event that had hit me hard to cause this, the simple truth is it was a combination. The medication change was definitely the start of it. I noticed my sleep first was deteriorating and then my mood. I know I will probably be on medication for the rest of my life, but its therapy that is going to get the old me back (slightly more improved I hope).
My hypnotherapy has made a massive improvement, but I still feel the underlying cause has not been fully dealt with. After spending nearly £800 on therapy so far, I cannot afford to spend anymore. I am currently waiting for my free talking therapy with the wellbeing team to start.
The last few days have been very tough for me, but I have got through them. This blog is helping me to feel better by speaking freely about how I am feeling. Thank you to everyone that is reading, following and subscribing. It means alot.