So here is apparently what is wrong with me and how it affects my daily life.
I have been diagnosed by a psychiatrist and told the following. I have borderline personalty disorder, generalised anxiety disorder and clinical depression. Apart from the above, I have and underactive thyroid and Pernicious anemia, both of which have big effect on mental health.
Borderline personality disorder is a condition that affects how you think, feel and interact with other people. Symptoms of borderline personality include being emotionally unstable, having upsetting thoughts and acting without thinking. The main treatment for borderline personality disorder is a type of talking therapy called psychotherapy. The cause of borderline personality disorder is unclear. It’s been linked to traumatic events during childhood, such as neglect or abuse. Basically, I don’t see and react to people and situations in the same way as most people. Things easily get blown out of all proportion. Its horrible.
Generalised anxiety disorder is where you feel anxious most of the time. Symptoms of generalised anxiety disorder vary from person to person, but include constant worrying, a sense of dread and difficulty concentrating.Things like exercising more and drinking less alcohol can help with generalised anxiety disorder. Treatments include talking therapies and medicines. This can literally consume me. I hide it very well by laughing and joking all the time.
Clinical depression is the more-severe form of depression, also known as major depression or major depressive disorder. It isn’t the same as depression caused by a loss, such as the death of a loved one, or a medical condition, such as a thyroid disorder. The feeling of low mood and helplessness can last for months on end. It’s horrible.
An underactive thyroid gland (hypothyroidism) is where your thyroid gland does not produce enough hormones. Common signs of an underactive thyroid are tiredness, weight gain and feeling depressed. One bonus is medical exemption (free prescriptions).
Last but not least is my old friend Pernicious anemia. This is a chronic form of low B12 that can have serious consequences on health if left untreated long-term. However, because symptoms of the condition typically look like other common conditions, it’s often misdiagnosed as depression or anxiety. So not actually linked to anxiety/depression, but presenting similar symptoms.
In summary, I’m fighting an up hill battle. I know there are people far worse off than myself, but I wanted to give you all a little insight.
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