A brief moment of clarity

I woke up at 6am, I didn’t sleep well at all last night. As I layed in bed I noticed something that hadn’t happened to me in weeks…..no burning sensation in my head, no anxiety. It felt so strange just to feel “normal”. I was so happy. I started to think of all the things I could do today, I was excited.

I got up, trained for a short while, showered and got dressed. I was just about to start reading one of my many unread books, and then I began to notice. Slowly, there it was again rearing its ugly head once more. The burning feeling was back, the anxiety was back. Why? What had happened? I hadn’t even left my flat. What have I got to be anxious about?

So many question that I don’t have answers for right now.

I am expcting a call from my hypnotherapist at 11am. I will explain it all to him and hopefully we can work through it all together.

A few weeks ago I would have focused on the fact that the anxiety came back so quickly with no apparent reason, now however I’m focusing on the fact that I had a small amount of time without it. To me that is a massive step in the right direction.

Obviously whatever I am doing is starting to make a difference to me. I’m not giving up, this will not beat me, this isn’t me, its not who I am.

Whatever you find works for you, stick with it, keep going. I was hoping for overnight results and changes, it doesn’t work like that.

I’ve got this. You’ve got this

About catmann1973

Hi, I’m Martin. 47 years old, living in Suffolk. I have three amazing grown up children. I have the best family and friends in the world. I am a football fan, love going to the gym and I am a motorcycle pilot. I’ve had mental health problems all of my life. This site is about my past, present and future. I’m hoping to make it easier for people to be able to speak freely about mental health. It can affect anyone at anytime.
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