I woke up at 6am, I didn’t sleep well at all last night. As I layed in bed I noticed something that hadn’t happened to me in weeks…..no burning sensation in my head, no anxiety. It felt so strange just to feel “normal”. I was so happy. I started to think of all the things I could do today, I was excited.
I got up, trained for a short while, showered and got dressed. I was just about to start reading one of my many unread books, and then I began to notice. Slowly, there it was again rearing its ugly head once more. The burning feeling was back, the anxiety was back. Why? What had happened? I hadn’t even left my flat. What have I got to be anxious about?
So many question that I don’t have answers for right now.
I am expcting a call from my hypnotherapist at 11am. I will explain it all to him and hopefully we can work through it all together.
A few weeks ago I would have focused on the fact that the anxiety came back so quickly with no apparent reason, now however I’m focusing on the fact that I had a small amount of time without it. To me that is a massive step in the right direction.
Obviously whatever I am doing is starting to make a difference to me. I’m not giving up, this will not beat me, this isn’t me, its not who I am.
Whatever you find works for you, stick with it, keep going. I was hoping for overnight results and changes, it doesn’t work like that.
I’ve got this. You’ve got this